I understand Shu being a little angry with me. I understand he might need some time to get over it. But what I don't understand is how he can say he is "thinking about us", like he's reconsidering what our relationship is, and how he has "lost his trust in me" over that one night.
I regret that events of that night occured as they did, but I don't think I would really change my decisions. I could not and still would not leave a friend drunk out of his mind all alone on the streets. That's what Shu, and my friends, have been telling me I should have done... Maybe instead, I would have called Shu or someone else to come take him home, instead of taking him home myself. But I'm also not a child, and I can take care of myself. Shu's friend gave me a scare that night, but nothing happened... not really... I got out of it. And I'm okay now.
Shu is angry, saying that if he hadn't shown up, something worse might have happened. But is that true? I got out of the situation myself, Shu was just there for me to take me home and be my shoulder to cry on. I'm grateful for his help, but I'm not a little girl who needs taking care of either. It's pretty annoying that he feels that way.
As for Shu's friend... he took me for coffee and apologized for what happened, though apparently he doesn't recall any of the night's events. I was reluctant to meet him at first, but we're friends too. I don't want it to be awkward between us. I was a little annoyed, because little cues indicated perhaps he was not fully remorseful. He made "jokes" like, when I told him what he said about choosing him over Shu, he paused for a moment and then asked me, "So, what was your answer?" That seemed off. Does it matter what my answer was? And when he walked me home, he asked me if I wanted to kiss him. That was a little much. Even as a joke, you don't say something like that to a girl you're apologizing to. Or to a girl who's (supposedly) seeing your friend.
I don't understand boys. It's making me so frustrated.
